at last it's over.. it's really over

30 juli 2009, I finnaly had the answer that I’m looking for all 5 years..

And the answer is NO.. God, finnaly gave the NO answer to my prayers..my efforts.. to win his heart..to be his wife..

Of course, at the first I cried, it’s a normal thing... can you imagine that it has been 5 years I always love him, I pray the best for him.. everyday, in 5 years…

I had a beautiful dream about our future life.. and always hope that it will come true..

But I have to face the truth.. it’s hurt me a lot…but I’m thankful for that…

Thank you God, You gave me the answer, that I’m sure it’s the best for me..

I knew that You care for me, You love me.. so that’s why You gave me the NO answer… so I wont be hurted more than I feel it right now..

And I’m waiting for the right man for me,

A man who will make me really happy, make me smile, cured the hurt that I felt inside..

A man when, I beside him, I feel secure, peaceful and comfortable..

A man who love me sincerely..

A man who will accept me and my family as it was..

A man who will make me feeling the beauty of loving and caring..

A man who have the ability becoming my imam, imam in my praying and in our marriage life..

A man who has the responsibility, mature, smart and wise in making prosperity in our family..

A man who need me, need my support, my love, my dedication, and my prayers..

A man who really need me around...and beside him..

A man who make my life so perfect..

I don’t need a perfect man, but unperfect man, so I can make him the perfect man in my heart…

Thank you God, if sending me that man, a man that I’m looking for all 7 years..

Thank you that You'll finnaly ended my waiting with fully of happiness and beautiful..

Thank you God… alhamdulillah…